Looking For Ideal Partner? : Start With YOU

So many of us think that our ideal mate is out there somewhere…if we could only find him/her. We do dating sites, meet up groups, social media, even re-visit former relationships! We think somehow, some way we will find that perfect someone who will be the Prince to our inner Cinderella ! We walk around cloaked in our illusion that the missing pieces, the unfulfilled parts of ourselves, and the answer to our yearnings will be magically manifested in Prince or Princess Charming. The truth is until we cultivate an intimate relationship with ourself, we will miss that connection we so crave. A lonely person who enters a relationship is a lonely person in a relationship. A person denying intimacy with themselves will not have an intimate relationship with another. You may think intimacy is having sex. No. True intimacy has these juicy components: vulnerability- trust-honesty-acceptance-validation. Before delving further, ask yourself do you trust yourself to make good decisions? Do you accept and love the good- bad- beautiful-ugly- the shadow and light sides of yourself? Do you validate yourself on a regular basis? Are you honest about who you really are in those quiet moments when alone and not distracted? Can you be vulnerable with yourself by expressing and exposing your feelings, saying what you want or need, being present without needing to distract yourself? These reflective questions will provide starting points for inner work.

When we know who we really are , we are comfortable in our own skin. When that happens we can be intimate with just about anyone. We do not need to find someone to fix our broken pieces because we are not broken! We do not need to find a broken counter person because they are not broken either! It is never about THEM anyway…it is about our self love, self honoring, self validation, and having a love affair with the guy or chick we see looking back at us in the mirror. After all, every relationship is just a reflection of who we are.

Where to begin————commitment and intention to do inner work

  1. Take a deep breath. Look in a mirror straight into your eyes. Introduce yourself to you. 2. Begin listening to yourself..your self talk, your feelings, etc. Do this over time, and it becomes a practice. 3. Take responsibility for your choices. This is major! Start by making a choice to be happy instead of needing to be right! 4.Start practicing those things that feed your soul, that make you feel good. You might want to write out those things. This is Self-care! 5. Put pauses throughout your day every day. This free time with yourself offers times to check in, to connect, to find gratitude and peaceful, happy occurrences. Remember the phrase Stop and smell the coffee? 6. Surrender the inner critic within. Life is not meant to be a race or a test. 7. Do things that give you PLEASURE: physical, emotional, spiritual, mental. 8. Be gentle with yourself. This inner work takes time, but it is so worth it!

Self intimacy is a gateway, a portal to harmonious, safe, and fulfilling relationships with others. Imagine a world of people so comfortable in skins that they actually enjoy each other’s company!

This idea came to me in a reflective meditation once. Feel free to borrow it. “When I allow you and myself to be who we each need to be in the present moment, I have no need to judge you or want to change you to fit my preconceived agenda.It really is about love and more love!


Honoring Ourselves By Creating Our Unique Holiday Traditions

     It is my heartfelt belief we each deserve to celebrate this time of year in the way that reflects who we are in the present. That means celebrating, choosing to be alone, celebrating with family or friends, celebrating with spiritual groups, or not celebrating.
     Being a creative spirit who marches to the beat of her own drum, several years ago it occurred to me that my true self did not require the past holiday traditions of my culture or family of origin. I decided it would be a self loving act to create my own unique holiday traditions. To determine what would work for me, I asked myself some questions.
– Were there any childhood holiday traditions memories that stood out as happy thoughts?
– What did I want to include in my new traditions?
– Did I want to include others or just include myself?
     It became crystal clear I no longer chose to be trapped emotionally in the stigma of the holiday traditions of others. After all, I do not live my current life based on the way others live theirs, so why would I choose to experience the holiday season with the traditions of anyone else? Of course, if I wanted to do what others were doing, that would be appropriate, too!
     So, here is what I created:
     1. Because I am so connected to nature, I went into the woods and requested the elementals and nature beings  to help me honor them. I was gifted with pine boughs and pine cones, holly and red berries, and a small log. I added candles around these treasures, creating an holiday altar on my hearth.
    2. Each morning during December I dedicate time, compassion, and food to the animals I co-exist with in my wooded residence.
    3. Each night I made a commitment to sit in front of the fireplace and write in my journal , honoring the Fire Element, by expressing the things and ideas that ignite me that I am passionate about. I also offered thanks to each aspect of what/who is present in my life , gathered all that love into my heart, and sent it out into the world to all beings.
    4. Lastly, I made a decision to take  myself to a Winter Solstice Celebration with like hearted people.
     Reclaiming our holiday by creating our original, unique traditions and rituals  can be a loving way to avoid stress of old memories that do not muster peace, and is a gift to both our inner children and adult presence.



The Importance of Listening And Cooperating With Our Inner Messages

For a few years I have known in my heart and mind that we hold all our own answers within. We receive continuous messages from our intuition, our cells, our organs, every part of us. The Ancient Ones in past civilizations and cultures knew this crucial fact, and taught this sacred knowledge to all. We have often forgotten.

I consider myself healthy in my diet, my exercise regiment, and my daily spiritual practices. Recently I became quite ill and could not tolerate much of anything solid in the form of food. I am a Reiki Master, Sound Healing Practitioner, Daily Meditator, and practice Ancient Shamanic modalities. Of course I offered my body,mind, and spirit my own practices and reached out to other healing facilitators I have trust in. I also received unsolicited  and unhelpful advice and suggestions as to why I was sick.

I incorporate and welcome Western Medicine with Alternative  Medicine . My illness began two months ago and gradually progressed in a downward spiral. I went to my Integrative Medicine Doctor who suggested diagnostic tests, and , as always, he honored the fact I listen to my own body and intuition.

My body was telling me it was my time to come to a resting place, to receive instead of my usual M.O. of giving  help to others and holding Sacred Space for the Collective in our time of world chaos. As if I had a choice, and it became clear I did not, I stopped my activities. My body became weaker each day. I lived for close to a month on green juice, water, and broth. I did have a C-T scan, bloodwork, and an endoscopy. Most of the tests showed nothing was wrong with me. I listened without judgement but was weak. My body slept 10-11 hours a night. I experienced incredible Dreamtime each night, and even slept and dreamed during the day. I did finally receive a medical diagnosis of an abdominal, curable condition.

Through this experience I was not afraid, but at times was frustrated ; however, I continued listening to my dreams, my inner messages, and welcomed the support of my large tribe of friends and loved ones.

The messages of the Ancient Ones kept telling me to honor the change from Summer into Autumn, to be like the Wise trees that serve as my protection and guardians on the incredible property on which I live. I felt, just like the strong oaks, willows, and pines I was shifting in my beliefs, perceptions, and energies. When we allow ourselves to let go of trying to figure out logically what has no logical answers, and to trust the  Ancient Teachings ,Wisdom of Nature ,and Natural Laws to unfold, incredible events come to pass. Our world has changed and those who try to use prior ways to work through current situations just may discover those ways are now archaic, and no longer valid. Using the old ways will bring more fear, more anger, and more frustration. We must be willing to embrace a new paradigm if we are to live in peace and harmony today.

As I recently have begun able to eat food again, and returned to a gentle yoga practice, I see the necessity of this illness. I wonder maybe sometime img_3852 I asked for clarity, for inner answers to questions I did not consciously know to ask. I am grateful for the sickness that brought me to a screeching halt for it came with great gifts and blessings of surrender, of detoxification, of deeper trust and faith. I did release a couple of people I thought were supportive friends  during the short illness when I discovered they really were not supportive at all. My vibrational level has changed…theirs had stayed back in the past. I do not judge their path. Those relationships, too, have been part of my Autumn clearing and awakening.

Each experience I am blessed to witness continues to be an opportunity, a catalyst of ascension toward a new world, for we who have awakened, and to those gradually joining us. Sometimes we just have to stop and let natural cleansing lift us out of our old skins, and into a new sense of wonder. It does require mustering courage to be vulnerable enough to be transformed into a better version of ourselves. I often do not see the Warrior I was born to be for the purpose of sharing my experiences.. to lead another soul out of their own shadows..until I finally find the hidden doorknobs and walk into a brighter light. We are in this together, my friends. Let’s not give up just yet.


Finding Divine Love

As the world moves closer to opening up more following a period in time of complete change, I continue to witness divisions among the collective wearing cloaks of rebellion and confusion. There are ,however ,those among my tribe who seem to have surrendered and traded their questions of humanity’s future for a new wardrobe of true compassion. Hoping to embrace unconditional love and genuine respect for my fellow brothers and sisters, I have been observing and reflecting on how I can be the best version of myself in thought and actions. I believe deeply my answer is the practice of Divine Love.

I know my desire and need to be respected never is about what ”they” think about me. It is not about wearing a mask covering my mouth or whether I decide to take or not take a shot. It is about looking within for my self love and self respect, choosing to have my inner masks removed …which only is possible when I get gut level real with myself . I choose to take the inner dive deeper than ever before. In doing so I can either hide like a scared rabbit or be openly vulnerable and risk to make decisions based on not what others believe..but on what I claim and honor for myself. I do not need to push my beliefs on you and for me..I choose to respect your choices in the ever changing world.

The more I set intentions and align with my personal values the more self respect and Divine Love I get to experience. As I practice this way of living my life a few things manifest. I see myself releasing those who are unkind, disrespectful, and emotionally unavailable to me because I am giving myself those very things. I used to hang on to relationships of all kinds because I had history with the people involved. Now it is not that I dislike these past associations but the Universe is showing me the more self respectful I am, the more I attract and choose to nurture relationships that are filled with unconditional loving and respectful people.
I have no need to expend my valuable time and energy hoping others will change to treat me with equal Divine Love. I truly accept them each as they are choosing to be, and keep finding that Love and Respect within that I once thought existed outside of myself . The search is always found by an honest looking within.

I believe we need Unity, not Separation. After all, is that not what real not false illusions, of love about

Change Is The Constant We Cannot Control

For most people change is the monster under the bed that is terrifying. No matter how hard we try to control our environment, our life, our world… change is inevitable. I believe we resist change because we have such a strong attachment to the familiar. Even when we know the familiar is not working, we engage our proverbial claws deeply into our personal familiar. Why? We are uncomfortable with the unknown! We fear we will not be able to manipulate and control the new, the different, the transition….and we are correct. What we can do is to embrace the ever unfolding steps and moments change presents. Some see change as a challenge. I who have been a proverbial cliff jumper of seeing change as an exhilarating opportunity look for the silver lining of change!

I can assure you my personal changes at times are not met with beaming gratitude initially. However, because I am a pretty fast processor of the new, the unfamiliar, being receptive to the visions I dare to dream manifesting, and the opening of creative opportunities the Universe presents, I have made a choice to partner with change. It is a possibility we each can practice!

Ways to effectively cope with change that tiptoes into our life or that seems to pounce upon us like a fire breathing predator, especially in a world that continues to be altering our set expectations may include

  • Focusing and reflecting upon what is primarily important rather than aligning with our paralyzing fears may empower our coping mechanisms, such as observing the beauty of nature, our close connections with our tribe and loved ones, and embracing our passions . In doing so we create an atmosphere of positive distractions from our projected fearful apparitions.
  • Ask your fears and perceived challenges over the changes you are experiencing what opportunity and hurdles the changes came to teach you! It could be to claim new adaptation techniques and increased courage and determination in honoring and loving your warrior within! With each new episode of walking through a challenge never experienced previously we have evidence of how resilient and capable we really can be!
  • Inventory honestly your thoughts during and after the change passes. Do you make up a story you keep mindfully re-constructing about what is the worst that can happen or do you stay in the present moment watching each step unfold? Do you react or do you respond ?
    Take a walk, inhale/exhale, and become willing to be present for another instead of constant talking and chattering about the awfulness that things are not as they always have been. Often by gathering an attitude of gratitude we are more able to see the good that has come out of taking the dive into unfamiliar territory.

We cannot stop life from changing . We can surrender the ways we have always used in attempts to control and resist reality. Once you find what works for you , why not freely and unselfishly share it with another? That ,dear reader , is an expected gift of not giving up before a miracle happens….a miracle of awakening to see an amazing part of yourself you never knew was waiting to be revealed!

How Consistently Inconsistent We Can Be

I used to believe I needed help in determining which imperfect flaws of my personality I wanted to work on to walk closer to being the best version of myself. Then a light bulb came on! All I have to do is to be aware of those character flaws that bug me about others! You spot it>you got it! This week I have noticed the inconsistency of friends, associates, spiritual people, conspiracy spouters, parents of children, owners of pets, and more. I have learned to ask myself if this bugs me in others where am I demonstrating the same flaw? More often than not in me it is well hidden or I like to believe it is! Then there is my illusive and sneaky shadow self that I really love but that I try to hide from everyone else and even at times from myself! The flaw of the week: Inconsistency.

Just what is inconsistency and how is it demonstrated? It is not being consistent in actions. It is when we are not the same all the time…when we modify our actions and behaviors according to who we are with and what the situation is. It is when we make promises we do not keep. It is when we say of course I will do as I say I will, but we allow other priorities to creep in…even distractions! It is when we know inwardly the right thing to do according to our values but we either succumb to primal desires or conveniently think we can get away with ignoring what really matters to us. If we were to set intentions and actually follow through with them we would be consistent in our actions. Maybe consistency has something to do with self discipline. Consistency makes demands on us! I am asking myself these questions to get down to the nitty gritty of how consistent I am or am not:

  • Do my actions show I am congruent with my principles and values? First I have to know what my principles and values actually are. When I do not consistently align my behaviors and actions with my values, my self created standards, my inner guides for living…I will give a clear and loud message that I am not real, not showing integrity and truth in my personal and business relationships. In other words I am showing up as a fake person….a favorite description of others whom I so often judge to not being real.
  • Do I treat everyone with the same attitude, respect, compassion that I want them to treat me? If I treat one group of people one way and another group a different way, what does that inconsistency reveal about me?
  • Do I keep and maintain my truth , my integrity, my words as well as my actions, even when things get challenging? Do I have an unspoken rule that this is perfectly fine to do because it is a rationalization and excuse I convince myself of? What does this inconsistent behavior show others ? Can I be counted upon through thick and thin or am I teaching others when the going gets tough, I am consistently going to let others down?
  • Do I carry a belief that my priorities carry my personal entitlement to change based on my mood, my self centered wants/needs, or my demands of personal pleasure in the moment? Perhaps I am giving out the message my priorities matter more than my relationships and/or my willingness to follow through and deliver as I said I would.

The bottom line, as I see it, is when we do not cave and make a change in our actions in the middle of a crisis such as the world drastically changing from what it previously looked like, when we feel under pressure due to being judged, criticized, or threatened, or when the circumstances we are faced with do not affect us to the point we change our behaviors….then we can honestly say we are being consistent.

Being consistently consistent can become a targeted goal and intention or does it even matter? In my mind it matters only because I want to be the best version of myself that I can be ; I believe I teach people how to treat me: and, I sincerely want to show others and myself I can be counted upon by being responsible. It is not so much what I say but what my behaviors and actions show. My shadow self can spout glowing platitudes of incredible wisdom 24/7 but if I am not practicing what my Wise Being Within knows is right for me, I will be in conflict with my values….thus creating that restless feeling of being uncomfortable in my own skin. For the moment , yes I admit I am consistently inconsistent in a few areas of my life. At times I am content with these imperfections and other times I know I can do better.

Reclaiming Our Personal Authority

More now than ever it is crucial we each identify and claim what our personal truths are.

Carl Jung wrote: “ The most intense conflicts, if overcome leave behind a sense of security and calm that is not easily disturbed.”

When we separate from our instinctual wisdom and inner guidance , is it not evidence of the desire to gain approval and acknowledgment from others that we are living our life according to the beliefs and values of them? When we stop or never even begin to act out of our own authority perhaps we have allowed “THEM “ to determine who we really are, what choices and decisions we are choosing, and co-creating inner conflicts that somewhere deep within opposes our conscious truths.

I believe NOW is the time to reclaim our own authority—to stop compromising our individual values, to halt our allowance we freely have given social medias, religious dogma, political affiliations of all sides, friends, acquaintances, relatives, and even partners what our internal instinctual barometers tell us is in opposition to what we know is true. When we own our authority and live in our personal Power, we will be more apt to say no more to the illusive fears of being disapproved, criticized, and shamed. We open our unique portal to standing firm and tall aligning with only our truths as we present ourselves to the Universe showing the Powerful beings we really have evolved into!

Ready to release your shackles of the inner conflict and suffering? As I see it, we each are in possession of the key to free ourselves from our self imposed imprisonment of allowing a person and/ or controlling entity to tell us what to do, believe, and trust. It is our choice and option to live the life we want to live or to hand over the reins of that decision to others.

Instead of standing in disharmony against a pushy, threatening opposition, reclaim your personal authority and stand FOR being the best version of yourself—the one who shapes your own personal freedom and destiny with confidence and Right Relationship within!

Pandemic : A Sea of Triggers Calling For Consistent Self Care

Survivors of narcissistic relationships, childhood trauma, dysfunctional partnerships or family of origin, controlling parents or bosses, participation in any past emotional or physical battles, and numerous other experiences may have discovered since the world changed bringing the increased stress of the yet to end Pandemic that past triggers have once again raised their insidious heads. Many who had done so much inner work to find their triggers successfully managed in the past yet once again may be feeling a sense of overwhelming shame or despair.

Triggers are physical and/or emotional imprints that can re-emerge when certain smells, sounds, feelings, or tastes are experienced. These triggers are those feelings of being uncomfortable in our own skin which may include situations we would rather not revisit triggering emotional and even physical responses in our body including: betrayal, feeling unheard or ignored, feeling abandoned, feeling shamed, powerlessness, feeling judged, feeling someone is controlling you, feeling someone trying to smother you out of their neediness, feeling alone without any support, someone coming onto you inappropriately or sexually, or someone being too busy to make time for you.

Instead of healing from our emotional triggers we may employ distraction or avoidance techniques that never really worked such as getting angry, acting needy, blaming someone for our pain, using an addiction ( alcohol, drugs, sex, food, etc.), emotionally shutting down, or become overly controlling.

If we knew and remembered our triggers are a gateway and portal to our authenticity, we would affirm they jumped back into our experiences to inform us about ourselves and areas within where we need to heal.
Having a toolbox of self caring solutions is crucial, especially living in such a changed and tipsy-turvy world that feels out of control.

Some helpful strategies:

*Feel the trigger in your body. Our body is our friend and barometer. It never lies to us! Simply observe when triggers appear. * Begin inventorying and ask “ Why am I reacting? What is up with me?” We sometimes want to attack another emotionally or even physically for words or actions that triggered us but that does not help us heal. It only disrespects and causes tensions with another. * Spend time with yourself solo . If you feel degraded or shamed, ask what you are needing in the moment. If you are feeling afraid, ask what are you afraid of and is this fear real? How in this moment can you partner with yourself and become your own Mother and Father to look at the situation with a different perspective.

More Self Care Ideas

*Deep breathing with exhalation *Sing loudly *Dance *Go for a walk in nature *Journal * Run through grass barefoot * Exercise or do yoga * Text or call a friend
*Work with a personal coach to learn how to re-program old and recycled triggers

Write a safety plan and keep it available to yourself! I am a huge fan of sticky notes that I place on walls and mirrors. Self care is self love and we each deserve as much love as we can muster!

Excellent self care apps to check out:

*Happify *Brain.fm *Headspace *Pacifica *Worry Watch *Insight Timer *Jour *Mend *Shine *#SelfCare *I am *Aloe Bud *Sanity&Self *Joy *Sparkle

Remember we are in this thing called life together!

A Different Perspective

Reflecting on various times in my life of wanting an outcome to come to fruition according to my deepest desires and best laid out plans , the challenges of watching loved ones at the end of their lives breathing their final breaths wondering when their end would come, crawling through unhealthy relationship patterns wishing my partners would change and wondering how long it would take , the struggle of friendships and jobs dissolving that needed to end yet my refusing to walk away, the long journey of my transformation from living a life of unhealed beliefs and behaviors as I stepped into the powerful warrior woman I finally claimed and embraced when I did not even know that is where I was headed…..all these experiences were characterized with my walking out of the present moment and wanting sometimes obsessively to reach the outcome, the destination of what I wanted to achieve. I have watched since the time of 2020 when the world changed not only what was occurring in my psyche but what was occurring in others….such as the outcome of an election in the USA or the wanting to know the outcome of a mysterious virus that changed how we all lived our lives.

What I have remembered in thinking about various scenarios is when I am so focused on an outcome I have demanded the Universe deliver on my time frame and on my terms (this by the way is when I have allowed my ego to take over my show by the way) I have created a proverbial prison cell, thrown the key through the bars out of reach so I am stuck with my original passion that has turned into a “must have it my way at all costs- focused obsession.” What I am really wanting is to get the outcome I want and in these times of demanding my way and my great mental plans, I have lost the ability to enjoy the present moment steps of the journey forgetting once again it is the journey, not the destination that really matters!

Now being ultra focused ,even obsessed on a goal such as finishing a book, winning an election, graduating with a degree, getting married to the partner of my dreams, or any other must have on my time frame goals may not be such a bad thing. After all, does putting all my focus on the goal I want not lead to success? Yes, my friends, it mostly certainly can result in success! However…..here comes the different perspective…..

What if we each were to walk through our journey hoping for the outcome we want but during this journey we were able to maintain a sense of calm, peace, and were spreading happiness and positivity to all around us ? We would be surrendering tension, anxiety, fears, all the stress that encompasses the opposite obsessive pushing and forcing of getting that outcome we so deeply crave. We would enjoy pleasure in each step along the way as we watched the unfolding of not having to figure out how it was all going to work out. We could even surrender the need to know the unknown that was ahead in the future, and Oh My God, even surrender the fact we absolutely do not know what is the Highest and Best Good for ourselves, anyone else , or the world.

I am calling this different perspective Alchemical Juice. If you would like a sample, just stop what you are doing right now and exhale all that you have wrapped your tight claws around , all the need to know what is coming, embrace each precious moment of your journey in this thing called life, and laugh as hard as you can with yourself at how your prior patterns were maybe bringing about success but with the cost of creating drama, havoc of your mind-body-spirit, and did I mention were also causing the disconnection and putting on hold of those passions and relationships we could have been giving our time and energy to if we had a different perspective?

Of course, change does not come easy for most people. Familiar ways of doing life do not easily leave us . We will sometimes keep doing the same thing the same way expecting different results. I have heard that is called insanity. We change and transform only when we are sick and tired of pounding our heads into another wall of blocking our peace, or in my old way of living… locking ourselves in a cell and throwing away the key. We each really do have the key to freedom of ahhhhh peace of mind, relaxed bodies, and bounding spirits of heart centered alignment with serenity.

The year 2020…the year the world changed…has it brought you a different perspective or have you kept doing the same thing the same way expecting and hoping for different results? Something to ponderin your spare moments.

The Beckoning Call of Responsibility

Sometime back in 2012 I read a book by Sun Bear, sacred teacher and medicine chief, entitled “Black Dawn, Bright Day“. This inspirational book was full of environmental prophecy foretelling what was coming in our world, which geographic locations would be most affected , and gave specific recommendations of what each of us could do to survive in preparation for what was to be our future.

For me , personally, it was a catalyst for my beginning to take seriously the need of raising my consciousness as to how I lived my life, treated the earth and her beings, and inspired me to live life differently. I am sure some listened…most did not.

Here we arrive in the year 2020 and the call for personal responsibility is screaming way beyond a beckoning call for what is needed for humanity to survive, and for us each to accept and take personal responsibility for our thoughts, words written and spoken, and actions. This is the path to raising our consciousness. In simple terms raising our consciousness is awakening from our sleep. When we begin awakening and have one AHA moment after another, we are raising our consciousness. What follows—- unless we choose to go back to sleep are actions and new patterns that include taking responsibility !

When I tell you I am a visionary light worker, I do not mean that in a hippie dippy woo woo way. I saw a long time ago what was coming, and still have visions of what is coming in our future . I know I am not the only one. Taking responsibility to me is not just about how we treat the lands, waters, air but also how we treat all beings..and ourselves..human and animal alike…and nature herself. Instead of complaining about the government, the rich, the rules , those who you perceive hold ideas and beliefs that do not agree with your own, how about looking at our individual ego enhanced and unhealed issues we each presently have? Do you still believe you can keep numbing yourself with substances, food, obsessions, trying to control others, and any other addictions and continue living your life outside of your integrity and compromising your respective values while pointing your finger at those you want to blame for the shape the world is in? What spiritual practices are you committed to daily, and actually experiencing every day? Just what did you do today to demonstrate you are taking responsibility for honoring each other and future humanity? We each are entirely responsible for what we are creating and co-creating. Yes, YOU and I are co creating every single day, whether intentional or not!

That we each speak, write, experience, and act upon are concrete ways of evidence of what are sending out energetically and co creating with others doing similar acts. Is your focus of your thoughts/actions bringing you closer to your intentions of being the best version of yourself..or is it taking you further away from what you truly what to give to the world and to humanity? These questions are not asked to judge you, but hopefully are encouraging your continued assessment in aligning with being responsible because dear reader, we each hold a huge responsibility . It is admirable if your calling is to march in protests against inequality, but are you also doing your own inner work and practicing being the best you that you can be in the moment? None of us will ever be perfect, but what have you let go of and in what areas have you or are you willing to change to contribute to the peace and harmony of the planet?

The time waiting on someone else to take responsibility is long gone. Our government is not going to do it. Of course you can sit on your couch, complaining about what others need to do and not doing anything to change within. No one will make you do your inner work. However, if you want to make a difference in the world, to co create a world of unified harmony and place insurance markers into the sacred survival of humanity, there will be necessary steps for each of us to take.

Simple actions:

-Become aware of what you are putting out into the world by paying attention to the words, thoughts, emails, and social media posts you are sending.

Now set a daily intention to put your focus on the WHO you want to show the world and that includes friends/relatives/strangers. Forget your focus of doing something. Be the who first!

Once we know who we want to be…..we begin taking responsibility because we have awakened to the how we want to treat others AND ourselves! We consciously know the next right thing we choose to act upon . In living by these simple steps, we begin making a positive difference for the world, and for future humanity.

Are you willing now to accept the beckoning call to live with responsibility or do you still feel you are not ready? Humanity awaits your and my answer and actions.

The Misunderstood Practice of Surrender

Most of us have strong ideas of what we want to receive, obtain, and experience whether it is a certain relationship, job, home, money, health, or peace of mind. We get the idea in our thoughts, focusing, even obsessing on how, who, what, and when the illusive situation will drop onto our silver platter of life. This goal and obsession may even flood our ever waking moments so much we put other important activities on hold as we become totally involved in getting what we want when and the way we must have it!

Then after weeks, months,maybe even longer goes by and we have not received that illusive goal , we may start considering maybe it is time to let it go. However, our ego fights with us demanding YES I can still figure a way to control this and get what I want. Following that thought we may notice tenseness in our body, not sleeping well, venting and saying things to others we really wish we had not said, and the rising of emotional disturbance within us.

We may even say we want to surrender but the question is are we really willing to do so? At what cost will we allow our control freak ego within to step aside and we finally become willing to let go…and how do we even start to do that? Perhaps it will help to understand what surrender is and is not……

Surrender is not evidence we have failed. It is not using will power to let go. It is not exactly acceptance that “it is what it is”. Surrender is the place we reach when we know we do not know what to do, how to do it, or if our life will be any happier with or without getting what we were so sure we wanted. It is the moment of “OH GOD”…I cannot go on doing this to myself.

The second of surrender is simple, easy. It is the agonizing journey and pathway getting there that is painful. Once we surrender we finally exhale all that control, all that anguish, all those emotions we have been holding so tightly onto. We breathe freely. We literally see the end of our self imposed suffering. So must I, you, and we as human beings keep facing situations that we must try to control (which is an illusion anyway!) or is there another choice?

Trust me I have been there many times in my life, and today more than ever I see how much time and energy I have expended and wasted trying to control those things I cannot change. I came up with this plan. I call it a practice.

Every morning once I am fully awake I say aloud: What do I need to surrender? There are usually multiple things! Then I say aloud again…am I willing to surrender this, these things, thoughts, ideas? After practicing this for a while I have come to the awareness more often than not I am willing to surrender not because I am a saint (because I ain’t!) but because with each day of this practice I see what a struggle my ego presents to me daily in trying to control something I literally have no control over! My practice has awakened and opened my eyes a little bit more.

Once I understood that surrender is not about something I need to become a Nun or a Monk over…that it is really the ability and intention to ahhhh exhale into trusting the process of the Universe and that I do not have to force anything to happen…just enjoy peace because now I know it really is safe to exhale control and angst and let go. I think I will consider this day…just living in the precious moment of going with the flow…WHAT A CONCEPT!

Remembering We Are Nature Herself

There has not been a time I have not known the natural elements of trees, plants, stars, skies, waters, and land were my grace..my solace. As a young girl I had kinship with the apple orchards, mimosa and pines that surrounded my home. No matter what confusion and emotional pain I felt that I had no control over, those trees were my friends, my protectors. The picturesque creek that was laced with limestone, slate, and mica hosting periwinkles, lizards, snakes, and crawfish with her shimmering clarity of liquid beauty reinforced the magical reflection of my innocent spirit.
When my family and I left that place it was replaced with my new residence in a neighborhood with houses next to each other, sidewalks, and a new set of friends…a smiling weeping willow, pink and white rhododendrons, and a magestic flaming red maple tree.

I maintained memories of my visions of lifetimes in ancient lands called Atlantis, Avalon, Egypt, Sudan, England, Scotland, and the red bearded Vikings who often entered my dreams. I knew always we are One with Nature, Nature Beings, and the Elementals . The Indigenous and Ancient Tribes never forgot. As I aged I seemed to pick up other priorities, other ways of living , and began forgetting we have always been One with nature, and Nature was One with us. I still met trees, plants, Nature Beings, relished the Seven Sisters of the Pleiadians, the moon, sun, and stars in various places I traveled….but there was a slight disconnection. My life took me for a bit on the dark side as I searched for resolution to childhood conflicts I always questioned but never understood. I healed completely.

When I emerged and began my awakening I was 33 years old, and began remembering….the dysfunctional people who harmed me, the pain I had stuffed deep inside of my body and subconsciousness , and the truth I was a Warrior and Survivor. So my journey back took twists and turns on my path as Nature who had called me my whole life to never forget there is no separation between us.

In the year 2020 came an even greater awakening, a global one that touched every single human. For years I had read the prophecies of the Hopi, the Mayans, the African Shamans warning humanity what was coming. Nature began meeting me on my deepest mystical level beckoning me to remember way back millenniums ago I was taught to tell truth as a storyteller of the connections between humans , animals, and nature. Nature kept initially asking me to help the world remember the lost truth. I received gentle nudges that I smiled about but kept putting on hold. Finally, the nudges turned into pushes with evidence…butterflies landing on my arm and acknowledging my greeting them by flapping their wings as a reciprocal hello, birds coming right next to me, winds responding to my calling upon them, deer showing up daily on my path, light from multi sources following me no matter if I was home or in another country, and coming face to face with a black bear walking toward me on a railroad track in a rural area!

I could no longer deny the calling …Nature asking me to tell the story …the same story the British sculptor, environmentalist, and photographer Andy Goldsworthy stated when he said “ we often forget that we are nature. Nature is not separate from us. So when we say that we have lost our connection to nature, we’ve lost our connection to ourselves.”

Therefore, I ,with gratitude and honor, accept the mission and invitation Nature has offered me. I am writing a curriculum on becoming One with nature which will be offered in a series of talks, writings, and trainings based on the ancient wisdom teachings of Greek, Egyptian, and other civilizations. My first zoom training is on how to use 7 Senses we each possess to be utilized simultaneously. My intention is to be of service..to help us each remember we are Nature and Nature is us…our deepest connection that showed the thriving of the sacred connection in an experience called the global Panademic. Please connect with me if you, too, have a calling to remember what you and Humanity forgot…or just to connect.