There have been a few times in my life in which it seemed one change after another took over . During these times I do not remember requesting to experience this metamorphosis beforehand. However, for much of my adult life I have been that proverbial cliff jumper in which I just could not sit still in my day to day routine life. I think it has much to do with the fact I was born a visionary. You may ask what does being a visionary have to do with becoming a proverbial cliff jumper? To me having the mindset of a visionary involves wanting to make the world just a little bit better with my internal dedication that is fueled with my passions pushing me past my comfort zone. I never had to think outside of the box because even as a child I threw away what others’ conception of a box was and created my own version that fit me. By the way my box version is always changing too!
This year and it is only into the sixth month according to the calendar major changes have jumped into my life. So far six people I knew and loved have died, a major connection that I thought was solid has modified into a rather intense alteration, and two people I thought highly of have ghosted me without warning. In addition, work opportunities have slowed to a crawl.
Even though I am usually one who always looks for the silver lining and signs from the Universe I made the decision to first ask what the heck is going on here? I am fortunate I have a small, yet powerful tribe of supporters that I trust and can be vulnerable with which I definitely used in the midst of this series of experiences.
I did keep getting the repeated message in my mindfulness meditations and walking in nature that it is a time of Evolutionary Re-Set and none of us can effectively do life and its components the way we have always done it. I already knew the whole world had turned topsy-turvy even before 2020 when things globally came to a screeching halt and it was evident in spite of my deepest desire to have some control over situations that I had no control over that some Cosmic Jokester had ripped the bandaid of the illusion control really is right off of my tender heart .
Clearly I had been catapulted into a new transitional phase of my life. What I know historically in my experiences is to feel my feelings, to acknowledge each as they come up instead of the old version of myself , the one who became a scared rabbit looking desperately for a hole to climb into and hide .Today I know to turn to Nature who always offers amazing solutions. Nature never gives up before the miracle of her re-birth as each changing season occurs. She welcomes each seasonal and unexpected environmental transitions with Grace and Honor knowing with each change comes a new awakened opportunity sandwiched in growth, stillness, dormancy, letting go, and blossoming.
Finding my way in this transition has had these elements: * Stop fighting the changes *Trust the Process * Allow and embrace new perspectives to emerge out of what appears to be chaotic *Be open to opportunities to do things in a new, different way letting go of the “but I always did it this way idea”, *Be vulnerable and ask those I trust to listen and accept their support *Breathe and exhale *Meditate and walk in nature *Exercise the body * Find time for self-reflection and *Do grounding techniques.
Yes, big life changes and especially when several come at once can be challenging, but there is always a Light at the end of the dark tunnel. Endings always are followed by new beginnings. Death and Re-birth are transformational experiences. We cannot bring back what has died or left but we can view the new with a different pair of glasses, if we are willing to align with what was and what is now. I will never be who I was but I am grateful to be who I have become.
Jaguarwind 