It is mid October as I notice how the elements of nature are changing. The mornings have that crisp chill in the air. The green blades of grass are encapsulated with dewy coverings in a community of cobwebs as my naked feet connect with the Spirit of the Earth. I find myself reminiscing on Octobers of my youth with memories of hayrides and great journeys in search of the perfect pumpkin accompanied by my father. Each October has offered me new gifts, new opportunities to gather the Harvest of my Human Experience.
For me October is the time of year I reflect on the current state of my internal affairs, asking myself to acknowledge my accomplishments, assessing areas of my present life, identifying the flaws and strengths of who I have become.
As I place each aspect of myself into the cornucopia of this year’s harvest, I get to decide what could be discarded as spoiled pieces I have thus far been unwilling to release. I question if the rotted scraps of my ego can be salvaged or perhaps re-shaped for the greater good of any or all of my relationships. I honestly assess my integrity or lack of in my presence in social and professional circles I frequent. I gather those positive qualities that shine from my heart center onto those whose paths I am blessed to cross.
When I watch the lessons unfold before me that nature demonstrates, I am privy to so much heart knowledge. In this Autumn season I observe the changes as temperatures fluctuate from cool mornings to warm afternoons . I can see how Autumn is showing me I can adapt to the changes or I can refuse to modify my attitudes and behaviors as changes occur. When I allow myself to flow gently or resist fully with life situations presented , I can freely embrace how I have progressed or experience the stagnation of my refusal to awaken . Just as the leaves are colorized so beautifully by this season then fall to the ground in a symbolic letting go of one form to another, can I be willing to flow with my own transformations without trying so vehemently to hold on to those things and people over which I have absolutely no control? Autumn lessons abound to those paying attention.
Ah, the passages of the events of this year seem to have opened my heart even more than I remember in prior days. The death of a dear friend, the surrendering of the need to tell a relative how to live their life, the decision to leave a familiar location of friends and memories, the willingness to embrace new adventures in uncharted places, the validation from the Universe that not only is change inevitable but also necessary to crack my soul wide open, and the endless possibilities of seeing that the best is yet to come…all these facets of perspectives of my reflections of this year fit together in the Autumn that is so unlike any other. Life is good, yes very good.
Interesting, I have always been very reflective in the autum months too. I have always felt intuitively as though it was the time of rememberence and taking stock. This feeling is very strong with me. Some have thought that I get depressed in autumn, but that is not it. I am quiet and inward, but content. Thank you for the meditation on this time of year. 😘
Thank you for your comments! Being quietly visiting our inner introspections offers us so much peace! So glad to hear you join me in this reflection!